So here we are. Just a few days away from the end of this amazing year. I’m currently sitting on a plane from NYC to Denver, and reflecting back on all of the incredible things that happened this year. So how am I feeling right now? Well to be completely real, I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed by all of the emotions that come up while I’m recounting the happenings for the year. There were certainly ups and downs- but thankfully, more ups than downs, which is a huge change from last year and especially 2013. Twenty-fifteen proved to be a year of many positive “news”- new job, new community, new opportunities and most notably, new hope. A couple of years back, something very unexpected happened. Just a few days after the high of mine and Anders’s incredible wedding filled with so much love, happiness, and joy, I found out that my parents were getting a divorce. I found out while sitting on a bench in Paris outside of a place that, according to my extensive research for our trip, served the best croissants in the city. My sister called and apologized for breaking the earth-shattering news (I’m thankful that she did) and said that my dad was leaving my mom unexpectedly after over 30 years of marriage. What occurred in the next year or so is a flurry of a deep sadness, complete helplessness and worst of all, hopelessness. I actually realized while writing this, that there are many memories from that time that I have filed away into deep places in my brain and heart that are not easily accessible just by a recollection of events, because I simply can’t bear to relive them for the second time. That was really rock bottom- my mom is everything to me, so the despair she was feeling I naturally took on myself as a continuation of her.But here’s the thing- the reason that I’m able to finally write about this now, is because life has completely turned around since that time. This year, my mom met an absolutely incredible human being who is not only kind, caring and gentle, but who is truly her soul mate. An incredible match, I must say. So how has this experience impacted me? Well, the answer is complex, but one learning that comes to mind is to be truly appreciative (and I mean truly, mindfully) of the individuals that I have chosen as “my” people, as those closest to me. I tend to be fairly reserved with most, but there are a handful of people that I’ve connected deeply with who truly matter a lot to me- there is rarely a middle ground. There are so many variables in this crazy life that one cannot possibly begin to predict. What’s here today can be gone tomorrow. On the other hand, incredible people can come into your life unexpectedly. Some will stay, some are only passing through. But for now- hug them, love them, cherish them. Most importantly, make sure they know. *and with that my friends, I’m leaving you for the month of January. I’ll be focusing on polishing my photography, getting inspiration from unlikely places, and testing lots and lots of new goodies. See you in February!
**it didn’t feel right to do a recipe description this time, so I leave you with this very simple and quick matcha beverage, inspired by the fuji-apple and ginger drink at Matchabar in NYC.
- 1 teaspoon grated organic ginger
- 1 ½ cups organic apple cider
- 2 teaspoons ceremonial grade matcha powder (I used panatea, because it’s by far the highest quality of matcha I’ve found)
- Add the matcha powder to an empty bowl. Using a matcha whisk (or regular, I don’t have a matcha whisk yet but hopefully will after Christmas) break up any clumps of the powder.
- Warm the apple cider until its simmering gently.
- Pour warm cider into the bowl with the matcha powder and whisk writing out the letter “M” until frothy. Add to mugs and stir in the grated ginger.